Now that May has arrived and as I lie here awake at 2.30am on Monday morning 14 May contemplating what 2018 has already achieved, and debating the future. I remind myself that Gallery 139 is only 3.4 years old and I've never run business and that 'everyone' in business tells me it takes at least 5 years to start seeing the business grow. Even using the word business has been a hurdle to overcome. With the idea I will be able to run a commercially successful art gallery while still presenting exhibitions that continue to fulfil the why I started the gallery in the first place has been a challenge.
And every time, I think I'm going to give up I'll find myself thinking and organising a new exhibition or doing something that reminds me, I am actually doing what I love and I am spending my time exactly where I want to be. Yes, I have my moments where I just wonder am I really doing the right thing, should I just be making my own art and why am I working so hard for everybody else and why am I not making a living from this. Then I remember that the bank balance is going in the right direction. I know I'm lucky to have family support, support from friends and artists who continue to visit, exhibit and more often than not purchase works from the gallery. All these things provide not only the cold hard cash I need to pay the rent but also provide the much needed moral support and encouragement that simply cannot be bought.
So with these thoughts running around in my mind, May is in full swing and with it, this small business owner is ready for the challenges that lie ahead for the rest of 2018 and beyond.
~ Ahn May 2018